Normally the holiday season isn’t that huge of a problem for me and food. Yes, I indulge here and there, but I generally make up for it another day by eating healthier or avoiding some of the regular season indulgences (Mountain Dew, namely). For whatever reason, this holiday season has just been a gorge-fest for me. I feel like I am never full, most likely because I’m eating one kind of crap-food after another and crap-foods are known for not filling you up. Usually when I hit a phase like this, I allow myself a certain length of time to indulge (one week, two weeks), then I pull myself out of it and guilt myself into eating better.
Apparently I’m not on-board with that idea this time around. The guilt is there, but I’m able to shrug it off and move on to my next uber-disgusting snack of the day.
I think part of my indulgence-binge this time is that I recently started a new job and have been quite stressed with it. In the past, my stress-induced binges have lasted a short time and I’ve been able to snap out of it. This time, it seems like I got used to the eating habits for the stress phase and have decided to hang out there for awhile. My brain tells me to stop or tells me, “Hey, Lindsey, you just had a snack an hour ago, you really don’t need another snack,” but my stomach says, “Shut up, Brain, I want food.” And somehow my stomach wins every time.
I’m crossing my fingers that I get out of this mess, or that I at least come up with some healthier snack alternatives so I don’t have to feel quite as guilty.